Amazingly, Shari and I are married, to one another, have been for about five years. We've been separated and living apart for nearly a year though. It's a pretty long story, but to hit the more salient points of our separation, a few years ago I got it in my head that I wanted to share her with other men. You know, let other guys fuck her. Of course it was my intention in telling her of my fantasy that if she agreed to it I would be there to watch it all happen. I never expected her reaction to be as emotionally violent as it was. She began screaming that I didn't love her anymore, that I thought she was some kind of slut, that our sex together wasn't good for me anymore, that we might as well not be married, etcetera, etcetera.
Even after I got her calmed down so we could discuss it like adults, she was still adamant in her belief that a man who loves his wife wouldn't be willing to share her body with other men. I did my utmost to explain how terribly exciting the notion was to me, and that it in no way, whatsoever, diminished how much I loved her. I even got her to admit that sometimes, while we were having sex, she would fantasize about it being another man who was doing it to her. And she also admitted that when she masturbated, the prurient thoughts that got her off were not always of me.
"Look, Bill, having thoughts like that, just like the one's I know damn well you must have sometimes when you're with me, or when you're doing yourself, are just that―thoughts, normal, everyday, human thoughts! It's a whole other matter, a real quantum leap, to actually do it."
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Wednesday, March 26, 2008
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